As a secret fan of an underground idol named Rin-chan, I keep my admiration hidden from others. This is because Rin-chan offers a paid fan service where fans can collect stamps to have a more intimate experience with her. Despite rumors of her promiscuity and allegations of sleeping with fans after each live performance, I continue to be a devoted fan and collect stamps by purchasing cheki (an instant photo/a selfie with idol) and participating in handshaking events.
Given my low-paying job, I had to save up gradually to accumulate enough stamps to “have” Rin-chan. Finally, I have enough stamps and a mix of excitement and nervousness as I head to the live house to fulfill my dream. However, the nature of Rin-chan’s fan service and rumors surrounding her make it difficult to publicly endorse her.